jihanski

Mood: Sobrang init ng ulo ko, shit!

Napapatanong ako kung may readers ako dito, ang ganitong klaseng tao, ay kinakailangan ng mga kasamang sooooobrang haba ng pasensya.

1). grabe maghinala
2). grabe ang hallucination sa mangyayari
3). nagtatanim ng galit, at gumaganti
4). mahilig sumalungat sa usapan
HINDI marunong makinig
5). sarili lang ang pinaniniwalaan
6). lahat ng gamit tinatago
7). mahilig mamili ng mga bagay na hindi kelangan
8). walang respeto sa oras
9). napakakalat ng gamit
10). hindi nagpapatalo, at pag nagpatalo- di ka iimikan hanggat kaya nya

whew.

I’ll try my best not have plenty of insight and awareness that I start to lose my point. I run after what gives me joy, and that includes you. When things were smooth, I always hoped that things will be better. If there were times you felt that I stepped back, those are the times you said you are broken, and I don’t want to touch that part of you, it’s your pace not mine. But didn’t you know that I want to make you feel better, better than what you made me feel (parang kanta).

So don’t frown, silly clown. You gotta see the sunrise with me.

I talked to my biological father; he called right before I’m off to bed. My parents were talking about my failing weight and what happened to me in the bathroom last week. That’s the first time that I heard them talk about me, I grew up with nothing but questions, like why they are not together. I have eating disorder since time immemorial, sometimes I only eat because I like the food, and not because I am hungry. I seldom feel hungry. The only reason why I engage myself with physical activities is that- once I am tired, I crave for food. Doctor said that my metabolism is faster than normal. But I don’t want to get fat; I just want a normal weight. I have no plans of throwing away the bikinis and tight jeans. Read the rest of this entry »